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My name's Kayla.

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[Saturday
August 27th, 2005 ]
[ mood | YAYLIFEYAY ]

Wow, it's been awhile.

I was just reading some of my old entries.
It's amazing how much my priorities have changed.
Even in the last month or so, I've stopped focusing solely on boys and more on my life and my own future.
I've thought more in the last month than I have in my whole life.
These three weeks of school have felt more like months.
I've met so many incredible people. I really can't believe all this has happened in less than a month.
I'm becoming stronger of a Christian every day, and I can honestly say I've never been happier.
You have no idea how much crap I've gotten because I've finally turned towards the life I should be heading.
I constantly hear things about a 'bad-girl' like me shouldn't be such a 'hypocrite'.
Yes, I've sinned before. I've sinned more than most people ever will. Please get over it. I'm trying to better my life, I don't need criticism about it. I'm not criticizing their beliefs, so why are they doing it to me? Eh, does anyone understand what I'm saying?
My self-confidence is sincere for once. I don't spend every second of every day thinking about how I look. Not saying that I never think about it, because everyone does. It's just not to the obsessive extent it used to be.
My taste in music is even broader.

It's kind of ironic actually. As soon as I stopped thinking about boys 24/7, I met the most amazing boy ever.
His name is Richard and I believe he's perfect for me. I'm not going to irrational and say that we're going to get married or anything, but I believe (and hope) that we'll be together for a long time.
I met him just two weeks ago, and fell in love instantly. It sounds lame, I know. And you're probably thinking, "Oh great. Here it goes again." but this is different. I get nervous around him. I smile so goofy when I think about him. I get butterflies in my stomach. He's just as romantic as I am, if not more.
I'm actually afraid that we're moving too fast because we've only known each other for a few weeks. But I'm confident in us. We went to Shakespeare in the park last Thursday and it was amazing. We could be doing nothing at all and I'd still be having fun with him. He has the same beliefs and morals as I do, so that's a plus.

My life has done a complete turn-around for the better.
I feel like I have purpose now and I'm not just a useless teenage dirtbag.
I wish everyone could feel the same happiness I'm going through right now.

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January 17th, 2005 ]
[ mood | never better! ]

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